I beat my two month baby because I hate his dad.
Hi mamazala pls keep me anonymous I'm a young lady aged 24 my problem goes like this,i have been dating this guy since 2020 nd 2022 i fell prgegnat with his child .
So on on 5 November i went to deliver my baby and the following day my boyfriend brought his galfrnd into the house and they say there was a huge argument the neighbours were fighting with my boyfriend and asking him why he brought a girl knowing that I was at hospital to deliver our baby there was my sister in the pple who were fighting my boyfriend and she tells me that he was very rude to them to a point where one of the neighbours manhandled him aggressively coz he told them its non of their business he locked the girl inside the house cause they wanted to kick her out .
So i was deeply hurt when my sister told me what happened when i was at hospital so i called him and confronted him he admitted and apologised and told he broke with the girl on that very same of the argument ,a month later i went to visit him amd and i discovered that he was very much inlove with the girl and she visits him i cried my lungs out i was very hurt because i realised that the father of my child lied to me when he said he broke up with the girl we argued and he quickly called the girl and told her it was over between them then he tried to soften me up to forgive him but it's didn't work i was very hurt i developed anger towards him i pretended to be fine for my baby's sake.
Then on happy New year i was with him i went through his phone coz to see if he's not talking with this girl and to my surprise i found a message that goes like this 'happy New year my love , can we pls fix our relationship i sitll love u ' i was very angry i asked him he was tongue tied didn't know what to say what angered me the most is that he was inlove with other girls too, since that day my feelings died i dont feel anything for him i dont love him anymore.
Even when i see text from his galfrnd i dont mind, i dont get angry im tired of his infidelity my heart sunddenly stopped caring for him the is my son i regret having a child with him now i overthink alot i with i had a miscarriage when my pregnancy was at it earliest i wish my baby died during labour i just hv a lot of bad wishes abt my baby i don't want this guy in my life i dont anything that would connect me with him.
i tried to broke up with him he says he will stop supporting the child i don't to be in relationship with someone for the sake of the child sometimes i wish i was financially stable so i would cut him off from the baby's life i really hate him even when we make love it feels like im being rap%d sometimes i would cry after the deeds the worst part is he acts as if everything is fine .
I would beat my baby when he cry and shout at him i know he's innocent and i feel bad after hitting him and cry my baby is only 2 months i wish i didnt give birth to him cause now i hv to be with this guy for his sake so he can take care of him i wish he can die in his sleep so i can be from this guy i really hates him
Please fellow brothers and sisters dont judge me i am hurting and this is my first child and i have fear what would i do if he stops supporting the child if i break up with him cause im unemployed please give me advice especially from thoss who have had similar situation like mine i really i a had a miscarriage im confused cause at the same time u love baby and would i apologise after hitting him i feel like i can never survive without him cause i have a bond with him .
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