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My children are used as Tolokoshis


I would like to urge woman to stay away from men who's mothers do not like them. This is a very dangerous thing to involve your self in. 

Mothers in law will stop at nothing to ensure that their sons marry the women the mothers prefer. I forced myself into a family that did not approve of me and I used the "ngi la for indoda yam" mentality.

That has cost me so much pain in the end. My kids are now used as Tokoloshis and there's nothing I could do. It hurt me so much to see them like that so I ended up packing my bags and returning home to Lesotho. 

I don't want anything that has to do with South Africa now. My dad is South African that's how ended up there. Mamazala, my mother in law has never liked me from the very first day she met me. It was hate at first sight. My husband told me to be patient with her and warm myself into her heart. 

Because I loved him, I did that for the sake of our marriage. He worked at a mine and would only come home 14 days in a month. His absence was my biggest fear, mamazala showed me just how much she hates me in his absence. But in his presence she pretended to like me.

I gave birth to my first child who passed away at 3 years old, I was pregnant when my daughter passed away. I then gave birth to my son who also passed away at 2. I was pregnant again when my son passed away. It was a pattern, whenever I fell pregnant I would lose a child.

I didn't realise this until my husband mentioned it when we lost our fourth child and I was expecting. So i decided to consult without telling anyone. I didn't even tell my husband because everything I told him would end up at my mother in law's ears.

There was absolutely nothing my husband wouldn't tell his mother. I found out at my consultation that I have been cursed to have deadly pregnancies. 

Meaning that everytime I am pregnant means I am bringing a new life and also ending a life. The Sangoma further told me that my children are still under the same roof as me. 

They are now living in the dark wolf and they are used to spy on my husband and I's every move. Not just that but they are also sent to do other dark things in the village. 

I was given muti to sprinkle around the house and muti to bath. I was told this would enable me to see, hear and feel every dark thing happening in the house and yard. 

I followed instructions and what I saw that night still haunts me. I saw all my babies, dirty and sad. Not just them there were other people there who looked like they haven't bathed nor eaten in many years. 

Amongst them I only recognised two and they had passed away. It was as if I was having a sleep paralysis and the next thing I felt something choking me, I looked around and saw my mother in law looking very angry. 

She started strangling me and I prayed so much. Next thing I woke up in bed with a very sore kneck. It felt like I was really being strangled. I then slept with my light on. I was wide awake till the morning. 

The next morning when I greeted my mother in law she did not reply. I turned around to look at her and I saw how angry she was at me. Her hate for me had really escalated. For the first time since I moved in with them, that was the first time she ever stopped talking to me. 

I spent a week there and that week was the worst. I could hear people talking in my head and whenever I'd fall asleep I was strangled. 

I didn't even pack anything I got up one morning bathed and left as if I was going to the mall and never returned.