Unemployed and desperate

 

I'd like to seek help in finding a job. I have been unemployed my whole life. I am a 35 year old man who's never worked a day in his life.

I hold a degree in Human Resource Management and a certificate in Business Management. I don't even have children because I have a fear of having children and not being able to feed them.

I have however realised that my grandmother might be the reason behind my suffering. I'm 35 and at the age of being un employable. I used to ask my grandmother money to make copies of my documents for job applications but she'd always say she doesn't have.

I'd then ask help from relatives and each time a relative would give me money for those documents the next morning they would wake up with swallon and very painful hands. 

It happened to a few of them until they decided they will be of no assistance to me. I think they suspected that I was performing black magic on the money so they distanced themselves from me. 

I started begging money from from friends and when they would give me, they would get attacked by an animal that looks like a pig with a human face, that's how they described it to me. They all started distancing themselves from me.

I was alone. I started seeing a very big snake in the yard every Friday. I told my grandma about it and she said I was imagining things. Soon the community started seeing the snake too. 

They started planning on how to kill the snake before it could attack the village.

With me the snake would try to attack me each time I would try to apply for a job, which was frustrating. 

One day I managed to hit the snake with a brick not far from its head and it dissappeared. The next day my grand mother had a sore kneck, when I asked her what happened she insulted me.

I tried applying for a job again a few weeks after the incident and the snake appeared again, I hit it with knockberry on the tummy and the next day my grandmother complained about a sore tummy. As usual she was very angry at me. 

Months passed and the community attacked the snake so bad but it dissappeared before they could kill it. The next day my grandmother had bruises and cuts all over her body and she is still bed ridden. 

I am starting to suspect her for my misfortunes and more.