I remember it very well💔💔ðŸ˜ðŸ˜.
It was on the 29th september 2021 when i got a call from his aunt saying that the person whom loved n adores me so much is no longer with us 💔ðŸ˜. At first i took it as a joke cause i spoke to him earlier that day he said he'll be at my place(kasi) on the 30th . Guys another call coming through my from his frnds telling me the same thing n some where crying so much, that's when something decided to hit my mind 🤞😞 I felt other half of my heart departing from my body n thats when i started believing that he's gone 🤞ðŸ˜. I was in the kitchen by that time, i went so numb to the point that i burnt all the food n my mom just saw a smoke coming from the house n she ran to the kitchen n found me so numb. Tears were flowing as water tab. Iast thing i remembered was me opening my eyes n found mysellf at hospital.
I started screaming n crying my heart out but that wasn't enough untill the doctor comes n injects me n i went back to sleep again ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ž. My mom went home to check my siblings then when she got there, one of his relatives came to inform my mom about his death n that's when my mom understood my situation n she rushed back to hospital to check up on me again. She found me awake but not reacting to anything only tears was flowing from my eyes n queations in my mind.... Questions like"y now"? Y him"? Wat about our dreams 😞😠by that time uhm few months preg n my mom didn't know untill the docter tells her that day 💔.
I was so shattered, disappointed n hurt cause the guy promised to be with me till infinity ðŸ˜ðŸ’”. He promised to do anything for our unborn bby n me,. He was the love of my life n he'll always be.
Then i got discharged the nxt day still i don't react nor eat. I just bath then go back to my bed, my mom tried to console me but that didn't work at allðŸ˜ðŸ’”. All was in my mind was "God why him"? Why now"? Wat am i going to tell our bby 💔ðŸ˜. Days went by then the funeral day was approaching.
💔ðŸ˜On friday morning as my mom was preparing our bags to go to his place then i got a call from his fam saying they don't want me near their house they even did a protection order for meðŸ˜ðŸ’” like i couldn't believe that. It was like uhm in a dream land 💔ðŸ˜. I ran to my room n locked myself up , my mom called my dad to come n help to open the door since i was not opening 💔😠. Bafethu i was drained n shartteted ðŸ˜ðŸ’”. I ask God "y are u giving me such a big test" Y me 💔ðŸ˜?
Then my dad came n opened the door then they found me crying on my bed ðŸ˜ðŸ’”.
On the funeral day around 09:00 i started loosing my mind, running around my place with my pijamas crying trying to reach to his place but i couldn't. All i remember for that day is that i woke up in hospital sorrounded by doctors n my family n my dearest mom was crying her heart out. N all i ask was "where is he "? Did he come to see me " Only to find out that i was unconceouse for a week now n funeral was over by that time.
My mom just said "askies my baby you just lost both of them(reffering to the baby n baby daddy) i couldn't understand her then i started asking about my baby then thats when the doctor explained everything for me. For a moment i felt like my like was over 💔ðŸ˜for the next i felt like someone could wake me up from this dream but it wasn't the dream. I was facing the reality ðŸ˜ðŸ’”.
Thats when i lost my true self 💔ðŸ˜.
29*09*2021 the day i will never ever forget n i'll never forget how brutally he was murdered ðŸ˜ðŸ’”.
May ur presious soul find peace ðŸ˜ðŸ’” may u be my guadian angel n lead me to tge right path. I miss you😠i miss all those love memories we've created together ðŸ˜. I miss ur smile n ur laughter 💔ðŸ˜. No one has ever loved me the way u did🤞 . 6 yrs of our relationship will always be respected n cherished 🤞ðŸ˜.
By Mokgadi MolaontoaðŸ˜ðŸ˜¢
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