MY GRANDMOTHER USED RATS TO LIFT MY BREASTS.

I am even ashamed to share my story. I have lived with my step grandmother. She was a good actress, around my grandfather you'd bet on your life that she loved me with all her being.

Because i was young she also fooled me. When i started my periods at age 11, she asked me to never use sanitary pads but instead use brown or black cloth that she used to give me. Little did i know that cloths were hiding leeches. 

Those leeches would feed off my bl00d, still not sure what she would then do with them but she would ask me to give her the cloths back so that she can wash them. I would do so thinking i am loved and cared for until one day i saw her removing the leeches on the cloths and putting them in a container.

She thought i left immediately after i gave her the cloth only for me to watch her from a distance. After realising this i started washing the cloths off myself and that made her very angry. 

I later learned that she would take those leeches and stick them on a snake she hid in her bedroom. When i stopped giving her my blood the snake eventually attacked her leading her to losing her mind and eventualy passing on.

She used to do a lot of weird things to me. I remember how she also used to make rats bite my nip£es. She convinced me that it is a normal thing to do and that i will have the most perfect chest balls any woman can only dream of..

Only to later learn that the rats where tokoloshis disguised as rats. She has ruined my life in so many ways. Her daughter confessed everything to me after her mother's passing. She told me that her mom asked for forgiveness and she wishes i could forgive her so that her soul may rest in peace. 

But how do i forgive someone who ruined my whole being and ontop of that she died without fixing it. I can no longer have kids, my bre@sts itches so much till they bleed, they have blisters that won't even heal.

I now have an ovarian cancer. She has turned me into a scrap and expects me to forgive her. By giving me those cloths she used to lie and say that she's helping me make my v@gina tight so that the first man that breaks the egg never leaves.

I trusted her completely with my life and she chose to turn it upside down. How do i forgive such a person?am i cruel for not being able to forgive her? I feel like de@th wasn't even punishment enough.