I LOST FEELINGS FOR MY PARTNER

 I lost feelings for my partner 

I lost feelings for my partner...

Hi all hope you good. Please keep me anonymous 

Well I am in a relationship with a guy whom I dearly loved. I loved the guy so much that I shut a whole lot of people out of my life, when I was with him nobody else mattered. But then guy did me dirty, he would flirt with girls that I am used to, girls within my circle.

Not particularly my friends but girls that I talk to from time to time or even chill with. I became pregnant and it escalated as he then started dating some young girl who stays same street with me.

 No matter how much I spoke to him about it he still continued. So i would cry myself to sleep. Crying even when I walk in the streets. I was a mess, the way I was heart broken I would pray for God to heal me so I can get over him. I at some point thought of going to a traditional healer to get something that will make me forget about him. But as time went we fixed things, i gave birth but we were provinces apart.

The long distance made me fall deeply inlove with him again but problem started when I came back. He started acting right, he's always there for me and the baby, sleeps at my place everyday although he has his place. I can actually tell a difference from his last year behavior. Now my problem is I have gotten over him, when I was far I thought I love him but being with him now makes me realize that I know now i no longer love him, I don't feel him anymore

My daughter is 8 months but even when the father touches me I get irritated, I am always making excuses for not having s** with him. I've completely lost respect for him, I now speak to him anyhow unlike before. I try so hard to be cool and respect him like I used to but I just can't. I feel like the only reason I am afraid of officially calling it quits is because of my small child

I am just venting