I THINK I BELONG TO THE DARKNESS
I just kind of like summarized the whole thing, please read to understand.
Hello admin please keep me anonymous. I am a 17-year-old teenage who's going through a tough time. My mother died when I was three and my father, I don't know him. I grew up with my mother's sister, my aunt, and she is like a mother to me, she never made feel isolated.
Fast forward, when I started doing grade 6 I was so obsessed with music and I told myself that when I grow up I want to be a music star like Rihanna and others. Everything went well, I have about 21 songs and they are all pop songs. I always saw myself as a famous first South African who could break the records, but all that changed when I started doing grade 10.
I started having weird dreams about demons and what's scary is that, when I dream I don't dream normally because I can see and feel myself that I am dreaming. I would just look at everything in my dream, find a place where it's high so that when I jump I know I'm going to wake up. Not so long a week ago I had the scariest dream of my life, when I was with a white man that I don't know, we entered a church, a Satanist church, all the people there were dressed in red and black and they had bowls that had blood. I tried running away but the gate was locked and it was tall and huge.
One of those people, a white woman came to me and said "Welcome, we have been waiting for you" and then I said "no I belong to Z. C. C church in South Africa" and then she said "no you belong here, accept it" like I said I always have a plan to escape in my dreams so I looked around in that church and saw a hole, jumped in it but this time it was different.
I fell into a forest where there was a beast. Again the very same white man am always dreaming about, gave me a rope and he said "save thing thing" without hesitation, I took the rope and saved it from another deep hole but after the beast came out, the man said "run!" and I fell into the same hole the beast was trapped in and i woke up. I have a whole room to myself here at home. Sometimes just sitting alone, I could feel like there's something in my room, and it's not maybe a human spirit but something that does not feel right and normal.
One time I was sleeping with my little brother when he just woke up in the middle of the night and all I heard was my bedroom door opening, I don't really sleep with my lights off because I'm scared, so he just got off the bed and opened the door, I asked him "where are you going" and he said to Mama's room I asked him why and then he said "mh mh" ahh I let him go.
The next day when I woke I found him sitting in the dining room, he's always the first one to wake up and he said to me "I saw an eye in the kitchen (my room is the one closer to the kitchen and the rest are on the other side), but it was a scary one, it had things" I don't know what things and that concerned me, but I let it go. Another dream I had, it was about famous people in the world, we were in a big beautiful forest where there was aliens, presidents, famous soccer players and one female rapper.
I remember them all but I don't remember what they were telling us as we had a meeting, I let it go too. And then the other one was about Jason Statham, it was him, me and other people which I didn't get their faces. We were sitting in a bathroom a big one, and there was a JESUS photo by the window.
I was with Jason, he looked not very okay, I asked him "how did you become a celebrity?" as he was about to respond, the JESUS in the photo said "don't, don't" and then shaked his head, I knew that moment that I had to go away and then I finally woke up. Another thing is that, I can't pray, I try but I won't finish every prayer I start unless I'm praying with someone. There's always something that's forcing me to open my eyes each time I try to pray.
There's a lot happening I didn't write here but all I need is help. 💔
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